Four, Twenty Seven, Twenty

I have a house. It's my fourth try. I haven't been overly excited as every other time I thought I had a house something happened. I still am waiting for the other shoe to drop. The inspection went well and the appraisal came in at contract price. Still not sure if it will really happen. My last home wasn't nearly so difficult to find and close a deal. Guess I am wary of thinking it is mine.

The twenty seventh of last month was an ex's birthday. I sent him a simple email. We haven't really gotten detailed in our exchanges. Guess he wonders what I want. I want to know he is doing well but not the details of his life. Is that selfish? And yes, although I hesitate to admit it, I would still be with him if he asked.

I close on the house on Nov 20th. I guess I can start breathing again then.

Still Looking

For what? a home...a man...a life

I have since lost another house. This time to a higher bidder. I can't find much in my target neighborhood that I can afford. Very frustrating! And several people keep pushing me towards a cheaper house outside that neighborhood. Not that I don't like that house...it just isn't really where I want to live. So do I get the cheaper place? It would afford me to be able to travel, fix up the place, and buy those little things that fall to the side when money is tight. I guess I am not ready to give up on my neighborhood. Maybe the housing slump will hit it and prices will fall. Maybe it won't . Guess I want to wait a bit longer.....

As for the other wants...here's to hoping they fall in place. Cause right now, I am tired of looking.

Tuesday Blues

I got my inspection report from the house. Looks like there is a lot more wrong with it than I thought. I am asking an awful lot for the seller to fix. Guess I have already given up on it. I don't expect them to be willing to fix all the problems. I should know for sure in the next couple days.

The art show was fantastic! Really liked a lot of his pieces. If I wasn't saving up for a house, I would buy something. I might anyway. And he did seem glad to see me. He asked me to come hang out some time this week. Need to get over my shyness and just go. Taking tonight to rest as I was out too late last night. Maybe I should go over to his temporary studio right after work.

Been raining tons. We are getting the remains of Fay. The area really needed the rain. And it can be soothing to listen to...going to go open a window now.

Quiet Weekend

It's been a super quiet weekend. After all that has been going on, it is nice. The past week at work has been hectic. Three of my four bosses all wanting me to do something different at the same time. Thankfully I figured out months ago who really is in charge. He gets his tasks completed first.


Made an offer on a house and got it. I sign the final papers on Sept 19th. I always liked the month of September. A home is just another element to reinforce my admiration. (By now the song "September" by Earth, Wind & Fire should be humming through your brain.) Awfully fond of the entire season. I am sure I have mentioned that before. Look back to last year...or the year before. Autumn rocks!

Haven't seen that man I am fond of in quite a while, nearly a month. He is having an art show tomorrow night. I hope to attend. I hope he is glad to see me.

What's up with me?

I have been working...a lot. And on the same day the two other people who were hired with me quit, I was given a huge raise. So I bought a new car just to travel back and forth to work. Lately I have been house hunting. My first offer got declined as I was too late. Someone else got the house first. It was a nice house, just not in the neighborhood I wanted. So I have to believe it wasn't the right place. I continue to look. Although my realtor, who has also been a friend since I was 12, can be frustrating. First she wanted me to live in another city and now she is pushing me to settle. I haven't settled in other areas of my life, so why should I settle on a house? ................ In other news, I am eagerly awaiting the arrival of my niece. my little sister is due any day now. Makes my desire for a family of my own all more omnipresent. There is someone who i am very interested in. He is very unusual. And I really like him. I haven't seen him in a couple weeks. Here's to hoping i get to see him this weekend.

24 hours

It's amazing how much a persons life can change in 24 hours. I walked into work yesterday in a good mood for a Monday. The HR person stopped me in the hall to let me know I was getting a raise. This was totally unexpected. I was thrilled with the amount she told me. I walked towards my cube and saw the two people who were hired with me 10 months ago. They had both gotten the jobs they had applied for elsewhere. They would both be turning in a notice that day. I had to spend the day on the manufacturing floor watching the process for a new product being made. Around 330 pm I made it back to my desk to hear the fallout. My director was less than pleased to be losing two employees at the same time. I was pulled into my manager's office on pretense. The director then told me that my raise was more than twice what I had been told that morning. I almost cried. I never would have thought I would be paid that much for my job. I know I haven't blogged much about the new job. but I really do like it...and now I like it even more. I will have a financially security that I have never had before. My dream of my own place is that much closer.

PS I bought the gas sipping car last night.

Long Time

Been a while since I posted anything. And here and now I have so much running through my brain I don't know where to start. I am thinking about purchasing a new car. Something with much better gas mileage. I can hear a sigh of relief from my Aussie friend along with a muttered "about time". She rants often about gas hogging SUVs. The cost of a carpayment and filling up the new car is about the same as filling up my SUV at this time. If gas increases, then it would be cheaper to have a new car. My dilemma stems from also wanting to buy a home soon. I am afraid a mortgage company will look at my debt ratio if I were to purchase a car and think it too high for a mortgage. And I can't really get a mortgage right now since I am still a temporary at work. I have been assured several times that I am only a temp because I can't be made permanent at this time. But I need my own place soon. And who knows when the temp status will change. See...isn't this all intertwined and confusing? No wonder I am stressed!

Last weekend I went back to Cary/Raleigh. My friend got married. It was a great time. While I was there, I went by my old workplace to say hello to anyone I could find. One individual reacted in a way I never would have imagined. He seemed like he was more than pleased to see me. He has texted me a few times since seeing him. Not sure if that will go anywhere or not. He is a great guy, friendly, intelligent, kind and gorgeous...not often you find that combination. I never would have thought he was interested in more than being friends.

And life goes on...........