Jumping in the Deep End

I guess I am going for it. (See the confidence in that statement?) I have no job in TN. I am submitting my notice here on Friday. I am hoping for the best and expecting the least.

My ex is coming over to help me move. He promised and he is following through. I think more for my future bro in law than for any promise to me. I have not seen him since July.

Sink or swim on May 6th?

Gazing into the Crystal Ball

I read the horrible-scope on a regular basis. But I do so to see how accurate they are, not to learn the future. This one, it's is specifically for LUV, seems to be pretty close for the month.

It's always important for you to be able to share whatever you're thinking, and when it comes to your romantic life, that's truer than ever. So it's essential for you to keep in mind that you need a potential partner who likes to listen, and who takes you seriously -- but not so seriously that they can't help you laugh sometimes. The 1st, 2nd and 3rd are good days to check in with this fact about yourself. On the 8th, 9th and 10th, you shower your love, compassion and care on friends who are close to you. If one of them wants to give you love, compassion and care (plus a little smooching) in return, at least consider the possibility. The 14th and 15th, you make some plans (for a date, perhaps?) and on the 20th, you should go ahead and talk with your date about whatever's on your mind. On the 25th and 26th, you make a move. They like it, and by the 29th, it could produce some interesting results.

And yes...I have a date this weekend.

Purging

Why do we keep all this stuff? I have been in the attic the past two days sorting and packing stuff. This is the second time in the past year I am moving. I found old letters from friends, my highschool boyfriend, my ex fiance, and old journals. (I thought I had already gotten rid of all those journals.) The stereo I bought myself with my confirmation money is still up there. I was 13! It has a turn table and cassette player which broke about two years after I bought the thing. It is going in the trash along with my skates from about the same time frame. Nick-nacks which have long ago lost their appeal will go to Goodwill. Old clothes are being carted off too. The cute pants I thought I would wear and never did will be banished. The whole process can be very cathartic. Although I did not realize that an old letter could bring back so many emotions from the past....
Moving day is May 7th.

I don't know

I am trying to be ok with that statement. I am uncertain as to what I want from this reunion. I also get the feeling he does not know either.

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