Friends

They build you up. They let you down. You laugh. You cry. You make snarky comments about other people. You loose some. You make new. You wonder why one friend may not like another. But it can be really frustrating when you feel like you have not been supportive enough regardless of everything you might have done or said. How do I quit feeling like I have let this person down?

Integrity?

What ever happened to people taking responsibility for their own actions? What happened to personal integrity? Why do I even bother to live a honest and considerate life when all it gets me is nothing?

Melancholy Zeros

It's all adding up to a big fat zeros. My bank accounts are dwindling away to nothing. That fact is just adding to the rainy Saturday morning blues. I sit with my mug of tea and think back to where I was a few years ago. I had a stable job and a home. Now I live in a house due to the graciousness of relatives wondering the source of my next paycheck. Just didn't realize it would get this low....financially or mentally. Granted I am here because I wanted to be here. I wanted to come home to the city I love. And I am happy to be home, just wish the city was happier to see me.

A Little Too Late

I had decided after much self reflection that I was walking around wearing blinders due to my hoping someone else would get their head out of their ass. And then I realized that I was doing the very same thing. I had failed to respond to an intelligent, funny, nice guy because I was waiting on someone else. I need to stop this behavior. Guess I am a little too late. Reading his blog the other day there was an allusion to a new someone in his life. And it was confirmed last night during a conversation he was having with someone else from our group. So I am resigned to moving on.

Waiting, waiting, waiting

I called the HR department of the company were I had interviewed three weeks ago. Silly me....I thought they were serious when they said they would get back to me in two weeks. Turns out they have not finished interviewing candidates. UGHHHH! I started this process back in January. Wouldn't you want to interview right away if you really wanted the job? And this is not even the final decision. I was told there would be a second round of interviews. My temporary employment assignment ends on Friday. I have a friend who has offered me temporary work in the office at her catering business. Could be much fun. Couldn't be much cash, but still better than none.