Well Enough

The new job is good. Great even when compared to some places I worked through the temp agency. Still do not like the 35-40 min drive. The people I am working with are a good bunch. I like everyone so far. Getting to know their personalities and quirks. Learning who I can only take in small doses. And who may become a friend. Glad to have a regular paycheck. Starting to see a light at the end of that financial tunnel.

--- BIG STINKING WHINE AHEAD---

But is it all good enough? At what point should I be satisfied with my life. Still feel a huge hole in my life. Not sure how to fill it. Where to turn? Supposed to be happy on my own. And I am happy to a point. Just want that comfort of someone to love and be loved by. I know it isn't any easier on the other side. I know it is not all roses. I am tired of hearing people say "good for you", "dodged that bullet", or some equivalent phrase when they hear I am single. It has gotten way old. Tired of hearing someone complain when their significant other is out of town or away. I don't care...at least there is someone to miss. Or bitch about an ex and the fight over the kids. Well look there...you have children. Anytime it seems that there is a glimmer of a SO in my future it never pans out. - He told my sister he was interested. He has my attention. Why does he not ask me out?